Something to bump the rant of my frontpage.

showed me something today. She brought my attention back to something I had in mind since an awfully long time. I am in no way popular. And, yeah, I have only a few close friends. Friends I can talk with about anything. People who actually comment on my journals or help me when I am in need. I even had a little dA family. Had, I guess. I feel like I did what I also do with reallife friends. I abandon them. I know I hardly comment. I loose track of things. I am really sorry. I feel like I loose my friends I had at the beginning.

Ok, I stop talking about something without mentioning what exactly.

It’s about the few close friends I have. Thinking about it (without looking at my list) I always can remember , , , , , . They are persons I know for a longer or shorter time, they helped me a lot during hard times. Ribbons and Shanree are even my dA sisters. But I feel bad about it, because I hardly talk to them. Shanree always leaves nice comments, and I feel so bad for not replying to all of them. And Ribbons is just some kind of close. Equal past and lives. I feel like I abandoned her. I still envy her style, her pictures are so awesome. Especially her graphite pieces. And honestly, I always was jealous that she created so interesting species. That was the reason why I began to draw her char. It is an awesome creature. We used to talk much and drew each other gift art. Than my and her live got busier. Work, school, commissions.
I hardly had time for myself. I had to reject many commissions because I have to keep up with my distance learning and try to earn enough money to buy food. Over half a year I talked to no one via IM or notes. No time, always depressed. Now, after my little rant and the great advices of , and a few others I slowly can work it out. Slowly, painfully slow, and I still have probs with it. I thought, or hoped, people would understand and I just thought Ribbons became with her story so popular she doesn’t have enough time to talk anymore. Than she left dA for a short time. I thought she needed a little time out. Like I needed too. It felt like everyone needed it (besides a few artists who think they are popular by just drawing the same things over and over again and they little friends who just copy them, how lame). I had a hard time keeping track of anything and please bear with me when I hardly comment on stuff. I try my best. I try to start new, commenting more, and please if you have anything, like you want to use my art, need help with drawing or just want to talk, drop a comment or send me a note. I won’t bite. I am still who I am. Busier yeah, but I still try to be friendly. You even can ask me for redlining a pic if you have trouble with anatomy. I cannot promise to be of much help, since I have a horrible anatomy but I’ll try.


And again, just because I don’t comment means I don’t like you or care anymore. I am just busy with getting my live back.